Suicide
It’s never really occurred to me how simply could can disappear from the world around me, but I think I’ve realized now. I think soon it will be my time to leave. Thanks to the people who have made a positive impact on my 14 years, and fuck you to all the others. Wish I had the balls to live longer, but everyone has their time. I love my parents, brother, dog and very best friend Nate Walesky. Nate, I’m so sorry for leaving you. I love you more than words will ever begin to explain. Please keep fighting for me, I will be watching you and I will always be with you, please never forget that, or me. Mom, you are beautiful but please put down the cigarettes. I want your life to be long, and I want you to be as happy as can be. You deserve it you lovely human being. I love you to the moon and back, and I’m so sorry I did this to you. Dad, I’m sorry for being a disappointment. You are the smartest man I have met in my life and I’m lucky to have been able to call you my father. I love you. Josh, my amazing big brother, I will never be able to tell you how great you are. I really wish I could be like you. I love you brother, be a kick ass surgeon for me. Candy, you are a perfect dog. I will miss you licking my tears away when I cried. To my grandparents, I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry for not spending more time with you. Mimi, when you come join me in heaven bring a stack of cards so we can play together. I love you so much. Bubby, I miss you very much. I wish you’d come home and give me a hug. You are an amazing man. MaJoon and BubbaJoon, I love you two. Keep fighting. To Shannon, thanks for being the best cousin I could ask for. The memories will stay forever, I love you. To Shoque, you are a fantastic friend. Thank you for being in my life. Quinn, I love you as well. And to the rest of my family and anyone who was my friend: I love you and will miss you, and I’m so sorry if I wasn’t able to say goodbye. I want everyone to know this wasn’t anyone’s fault. Nobody knew about this and it’s okay. It’s my fault.
Abby, Regan, Kayla, Lilly, there was no need to be such bitches. You made my life hell for no reason, and I probably wouldn’t have hated my life as much if it wasn’t for you guys. So good job, hopefully this is what you wanted. But it’s okay. Karma’s a bitch, and she knows how to get you back.
Jack and Josh, you two are scum.
Davis and Matt, I hope you realize what an amazing you lost when you got rid of Nate. You’ll never find someone like him again. Not that you deserve to.
Just Matt, thanks for making me feel like I was worth nothing. It worked.
Audrey, why wouldn’t you say thank you when I said happy birthday?
Lauren P, you talked shit about me while I was in the same room. Really nigga?
Georgia, have fun with Matt. I think it’s fucked that he just broke up with your best friend, and you just broke up with his best friend but now you’re together? But hey, that’s a fucked up thing to do, and you two are fucked up people. Makes sense.
There are many, many more but I’d like to spare them.
I won’t be dead right when I post this, but it’ll be soon. Thanks for these wild years. Take dingles at my funeral.
Nate, I love you again. Forever and ever.
“asexuality is just the lack of a sex drive, or a really low one” uuhhh no. really, no. that is incorrect, you have been lied to, i’m sorry.
asexuality is the lack of sexual attraction to anyone. sex drive is your horny meter. you can still be horny and not be sexually attracted to people! similarly you can be sexually attracted to people and not be horny!! amaze
oh my god this actually clarifies so much thank you
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“I love being yours.
Our covers, sheets, whole bed destroyed by our cuddles, the way you hold me, like the most precious thing in this world. Settle down with me, cuddle me in. I depend on you, every little word coming out of your lips, your voice, caresses, your gentle moves. I’m in love with you!”
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reblog if ur mom is smart and beautiful
I scrolled passed then I felt guilty
same
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